It's about time.

Okay. i've been away for many days alrd, just came back from SOOC(sec one orientation camp)

Day 1:

Sucks like shit.
At first, took class 1/5 then the boys were quite enthu lah,
Since there were like what? 30 boys and 11 girls ONLY?
And so Gary was the LOL and Farzana the ALOL.
In the end me and Jv doing most of th work because Gary had to go and Farzana looked so poor thing lah!
Can vomit blood sia fark. After introduction the troubles started.
Played whacko,elope, and a few more games before some Derek guy went missing-.-
Dk why he went away either but later found him and Mr Foo talked to him and he promised to come back and stay there and NOT participate in any actitivies as long as he stay at his place.
After that was some stuffs, teach some songs or smth forgot which one lah.
They had to create the class cheer. Then lunch came luhh.
Damn farking noisy.
But i would like to clarify something.
Please do not always blame the leaders for not doing anything.
Some of us sit there is because we aren't sure what to do or whatever, but if you guys open your eyes properly you all can SEE that most of the leaders are STANDING up and trying to ask the students to STFU during lunch.
So after lunch, dk went where, i think station games or smth?
I helped out with the campfire preparations by getting my sec 2 and sec 3 cadets to help out <3
Awwww lovely people man! C:
Helped brought down some stuffs and directed them as to what items to take.
And then later on , they made the stage properly and set the groundsheets and everything.
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Another pointer i would like to point out.
Im not very happy with some people sleeping on that stage used for th campfire.
These groundsheets, inner sheets and outer sheets are precious.
If snacks are put into them, then we put these DIRTIED sheets into the NP room, whatddya think will happen?
Please lah fuck, CAN AT LEAST THINK ABOUT THIS?
YOU THINK WE DIDNT SEE ALL OF YOU LYING DOWN THERE MEH.
GOT BUNK PLEASE USE IT. OPS ROOM ALWAYS AVAILABLE.
WANT TO TARGET ME NOT MY PROB.
BUT I CAN TELL YOU THIS.
THERE WAS A TEACHER WHO ASKED SOMEONE WHO WERE THE ONES WHO SLEPT ON STAGE.
Please lah. Not exco also can come out sleep there. So what kinda camp is this?
Exco also sleep there. Like i said. There's a bunk. Or OPs room right.
Wasn't OPs room supposed to be outta bounds?
Why i see some ppl go inside that are NON-exco one.
So in the end student leaders dont get any credit is it?
Some teacher said the night before during debrief that she saw
A lot of the LOLs doing their work.
HELLO? Gary is gone, the ALOL who's supposed to be that guy isnt much help because he's not being listened to , you think they can help ah?
Its WE STUDENT LEADERS WHO HELPED ALSO OKAY.
ME AND MY PARTNER.
SHOUT FROM MORNING TILL NIGHT.
AND IN THE END?
NO FUCKING CREDIT.
THANKS LAH.
Please do not assume all LOLs are doing their job ok.
I know there is a group whose LOL is slacking away.
Too girl to do the job.
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Day 2:
Come down to do patrol duty.
Saw yk just sitting alone there while the some of the excos are just in front of him SLEEPING on the stage.
He bathed to keep awake. He has bloodshot eyes. He's doing a lot ot things.
HE'S KEEPING A LOT OF FARKING COMPLAINS BECAUSE HE WANTS PEACE.
Did patrol duty and came down and waited for awhile before getting sec 1s to settle.
When my friend asked yk where's the excos.
Did all of you guys know he was FUCKING frustrated about that?
"ALL SLEEPING LAH (for got this part is what) "
Huh. Students can wake up. We can wake up. Why cant they wake up? My cadet slept the same time as them polishing her boots in the bunk and she can wake up. That's the same.
If you think tonning the night is so fun when you're having a camp and eating snacks,
Then maybe you've got the wrong place.
The only ppl i actually saw working was from the Ops room in the morn.
Anyways.
Had morn PT. i helped out with carrying breakfast, then went to eat it later during breakfast :D
Okay so it was station games after that.
First game was ok ok.
Before that some bloody small boy and malay one started fighting or smth.
Went to 2nd station.
That station got me so fed up i scolded them with my one voice being the loudest i could release.
Almost cried after that too.
I shouted at them their marks for respect then they diam diam.
Pathetic man. 0 for respect for ytd, 2 for th 2nd station.
I like the malay boys in th class though, and all the girls. Very very cooperative.
Its the chinese ppl who have some problem. Some of them only.
Whatever. complained to teacher then they all shut up.
After games, had lunch and then quickly changed to uniform.
I HAD FUN HERE.
AT LEAST ITS BETTER.
Cca exhibition finished and i went home after that.

I lazy be specific lah.
But i just wanna say all of this out.
I cant take it.
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Hmm. at first i tot you came to stalk me or smth.
guess i found out th truth.
not bad ah, because i rather think tht your decision to go to the campfire got motive one.
and th way that you can ignore me as well.
confirm i know why.
which is why after hearing something,
i decided . its a must to let go of all th disgusting + nice memories.
and i am going to.
I should not have wavered and hesitated because i couldnt let go of these memories yet.
and i definitely know these memories are stopping me from getting a new life,
and maybe considering a new love/like.
But i will.
Cuz.
You have not changed yet.
You'll not just see the person that you thought you had with you last time,
You'll see the Mariam Lim 360 degrees all around,and find out her true side.
You didnt change one bit.
So advices were probably not taken to hearing?
Nevermind. That's your prob.
As long as you dont try to do anything funny can le.

Because, i'm ALWAYS on the top. I won't let you take over this.


-MLKF