What Am I Doing?

And it comes to a point in time again where I have to question myself:
What am I doing this for?

It's 6:13 am, I only slept a wink - about 2-3 hours, and preparing to head off to work.
Again.
Why?
Cuz productions really threatens to sell my soul away. 

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why do I push myself so hard?
Got things full on my hands: Exhaustion, MOS worries, Practical test, AFP worries, exhaustion, anxiety, head-numbness and failing macbooks.
So why do I keep adding more?

I think I need to give myself a break.

I really hate getting all these feels every single time I wake up way early for work.

Maybe it's healthier if I sleep in.